I bounced back full force Sunday morning – I craved for Dominating Little after I had been sick for almost 3 weeks and I were convinced that she picked up on this as she was playfully provoking me for most of the time during the Sunday morning. My initial thought was “oh, so you want to play that game”, so I started to participate in her provocations to increase the stakes a little bit.
It is, from an outside perspective, a set of weird dynamics which needs some explanation. Little is what one would define as a disobedient submissive, she needs to be defeated in order to end up in subspace. So when she provokes me, then there’s a lot of hidden communication in that behaviour. One is that it is a hidden confirmation that she is in a playful mood, but she also builds up my energy through the provoking – Some people would refer to it as anger, but that would be wrong in this context. It’s more about a build of energy and arousal.
The provoking started with a small language control exercise, Little wasn’t allowed to use the word “no” when she spoke. In spite of the given order she continued to deliberately use the word, with a cunning smile on her lips. I’m not the kind of Dominant that gets aggravated easily and patience is a virtue even within BDSM.
I decided to not go any further with raising the stakes, I just gave Little a warning that there would be dire consequences if she kept it going. Of course she didn’t listen to my warning and I didn’t do anything at that particular point in time, I just waited so I could deal with the consequences when she wasn’t prepared for it.
She got into a relaxed mode during the day and when the evening came, then it was time to establish what type of trouble disobedient behaviour would put you in. I pulled out my electroplay box and attached an electroplay dildo to it and ordered her to take her clothes off. Little has a fear of two things, electroplay and when she doesn’t know what is going to happen to her. Her fear of not knowing what is going to happen is something that we are working on as I believe it is getting in her way of submitting, it will make the process of getting her into subspace more like a bumpy ride and it’s something that we are trying to even out.
I ordered her to stand on all fours as I inserted the dildo and cranked up the power. Her fear was clearly showing in the tone of her voice and her body language. But the most interesting part was that it got her really wet as well and it was definitely messing with her head – Fear and arousal at the same time, the essence of BDSM to some extent.
Up until now I haven’t been using fear as an element in my progression with Little as she hasn’t been ready for it. She got stimulated by the electricity from the dildo as I moved it around at the same time and her orgasm seemed different as she went into a more shallow kind of subspace.
She hit subspace quicker compared to before and with less effort.
I really enjoyed the fact that things came out differently and that her experience were different – And working with her fear as an element in the play really motivated me as well.
It took Little about two days to land on her feet again and she will probably write something about her side of the experience.